I haven't been posting a lot

I have not been posting a lot lately. If you check here regularly, you know that. It is not that I have been especially busy all that time, although this week with Good Friday and Easter certainly is busy. However, the bigger challenge is that I have been finding that my spirit is heavy within me, and that means doing what I normally do is very difficult.

If one has a job that is physical labor or something similar, you can keep going when your heart is feeling heavy. You can even be pretty much as productive as you are when that is not the case. However, I find when ministering as a pastor, having a spirit that is in one of those times like Elijah faced in 1 Kings 19, it makes ministry very difficult. It takes all I have to get two sermons a week done. One visit will leave me exhausted. I become short with my wife and son. All of which makes getting through the day to day work of pastoral ministry very difficult.

As you may have surmised from the preceding, that last several weeks have been like that for me. I can't put a finger on anything specific, but it seems that no matter what I do, I have been feeling that it is of little or no use. I feel drained spiritually, and although it is slightly better this week, I know it is still there.

On the positive side, usually when this sort of thing happens God is doing something that either surprises me or that I need. That has happened more than once in the past, but knowing that does not remove the struggle of the current time.

Instead of posting, I will be spending my time in prayer and the Word, waiting upon God to bring times of refreshing.